P
DirtiMartini
read my profile
sign my guestbook

Visit DirtiMartini's Xanga Site!

Message: message me


Member Since: 7/18/2003
Lifetime


SubscriptionsSites I Read

Posting Calendar

|<< oldest | newest >>|
view all weblog archives

Get Involved!

Suggest a link

Recommend to friend

Create a site

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Embrace

You. As I walked this morning I thought of you, as often I do. Your face, your smile, your laugh penetrating the bustle and static in my mind -- delicately emerging until I was aware of your presence. And, unprompted, these thoughts began scrolling through my mind:

Your pure nature
Your true heart
You make me a better person
You keep me grounded
You keep me reasonable
You hold me accountable
You tell me when I am wrong
The quality you bring to my life
You make my heart lighter
You make me laugh

You make me better.

You, whom I adore. You, whom I love. My one and only.



Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Inconvenient Truths

An unidentified disappointment has been slowing growing inside my mind and I realized today what it is: the reality that truth brings.

I didn't ask for it, but it still showed up. A stirring, a building awareness -- all coming back to the fact that, though I have been content for a long time, I have been naive. It's strange how we can find ourselves so blissfully, blindly content with life's situations and also how that happy balance is so easily offset with the slightest introduction of truth.

The good/bad thing about awareness is that once you are exposed to it, there is no turning back. But now that I am seeing my surroundings with increasing clarity, I realize that I do not want to turn back.